my library degree is useless to me here
A co-worker stopped in today with her 3 week old baby. She thought she’d be able to just stop in and see a few people and escape. Hah. No such luck, as she and her baby were immediately surrounded by a throng of adoring colleagues. As we were talking, two different co-workers turned to me and said something to the effect of “doesn’t seeing the little baby make you want to just go out and have another?” Unprepared for the question, and unprepared to give anything like a reasonable answer, I pleaded no comment both times.
This evening, Chris and Zoe and I were walking out in the park and I related the story to Chris. “Well,” he said, “does it make you want to have another?” I keep thinking this question will get easier and the answer will become clear, but that’s not the case. On the one hand, newborns are sweet and cuddly and their poop doesn’t smell all that bad, but on the other hand, Zoe is so much more fun now, I wonder if I really want to go through the newborn stage again. But it’s not like it lasts all that long. Chris answered that he didn’t think he wanted another baby just right now and I agree. But that’s part of my concern, if we wait until we think we’d like a baby, will we have waited too long, effectively making the decision for us? I feel a little silly dwelling on this so much, I fear it’s becoming tiresome, but it just keeps nagging at me, and then something like this afternoon happens and I’m face to face with the questions again.
If only the library subscribed to the Database of What the Future Holds, but I think that’s outside our budget. Heck, I’d settle for a subscription to Journal of Should Chris and Ann Try to Reproduce Again. Or maybe I don’t actually want to read any articles that they would publish.